My Story

This story is About Survival

This story is about survival of 28 years of physical pain, many surgeries from cancer and open heart to more minor ones, loneliness, various physical illnesses, loss of jobs with the struggle of paying $290,000 in medical bills, divorces.

This story is About Survival ​

This story is about survival of 28 years of physical pain, many surgeries from cancer and open heart to more minor ones, loneliness, various physical illnesses, loss of jobs with the struggle of paying $290,000 in medical bills, divorces. How does one fight off the demons of depression from 24 hours of pain, especially after experiencing Heaven not just once, but twice. I was a runner at the age of 34 and then one day it was all over when the doctors discovered I needed open heart surgery. And then 4 hours later that valve replacement failed and I was put on life support and taken back to the operating room to replace it. During that surgery I had a stroke also. But then in a moment, I was above looking down at what looked like a dead body while the surgeons were desperately running around replacing that mitral valve trying to save my life. But at the same time, I was up in Heaven with Jesus. And every once in a while, I would look down to see my body on the operating table yelling at the surgeons trying to tell them, not to worry because I am fine. And then 28 years later I was still dealing with more open-heart surgeries, ovarian and breast cancer. On one side of the spectrum I had many dark hours of pain and depression, 28 years of surgeries, always in an operating room, loneliness, many days and nights of loneliness and just trying to survive the ultimate sacrifice, to heal. But the other side of my story was with Jesus not only in Heaven but also many nights praying on my knees asking Him for hope, strength, love and joy. Through my life I learn so much about forgiveness, my purpose here on Earth and that Jesus loves us and will always give us His strength, comfort, peace and love to guide us through. I see my video as struggling with all these trials of pain, loneliness, fear, being in the operating room and then a woman praying on her knees with Jesus hand on her and then ending with this beautiful place called, Heaven along with joy, love, peace, hope and the love of Jesus by my side. I want it to end with the Hope we all have in our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

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